Homeless

The new apt is a mess. Like I mentioned, we were promised that everything would be ready to go by today, March 1st. It is not.

-- we have no kitchen sink or cabinets

-- the floors are not done. the "floor guys" came in to finish the job today, which means buffing the floor and then coating it with 2 coats of paint. So, we have to place all our things into one end of the apt, let them paint it and dry it, then move all our stuff to the "dry" end and paint the other half (we are moving into a loft - which is one big room). When they started buffing, dust went everywhere, and I am highly allergic to all that stuff! Our belongings now are covered in a layer of dust....

-- noisy heater

-- 4 leaks in the ceiling. We have kitchen bowls on the floor catching the leaks.

-- ghetto ceiling needs a coat of paint

-- I dont know where anything is and I cant unpack anything.

In short, it is a disaster. I cant help but wonder what cruel thing I did to someone else at some point in my life to deserve this?

But I guess I have to look at this as a test, a challenge. My patience and anger are REALLY being tested. I MUST go to yoga everyday this week. My girlfriend who has had tons of experience with these shitty NYC landlords and management companies has told me that I have to "let it go." I have to quit thinking this should be easy, bc that just makes me short of breath and defensive. And bitter.

AND: I am certainly NOT paying rent for these days.....

Shame on you NYC landlords and management companies! How do you sleep at night???

But, ok....this is not really a disaster.....the flood in New Orleans was a disaster. The earthquake in Haiti was a disaster. This is nothing.

I can certainly get through this. I'll be ok.