....and #11

#11 Keep hanging around the same miserable artists over and over and over again. How do you know you have this type of person in your life? Here are the signs:

- you feel icky after hanging out with them - you actually feel bad about yourself from their negativity

- when with them, you don't feel hopeful, excited, cared for.....you actually feel shut down and protective

- the conversation is always, in some way, negative

- they criticize other artists

- you feel judged, like they will turn on you at any moment

- you feel like you cannot share your victories with them - if you make yourself out to be miserable too - they accept you

ps. add alcohol to this kind of person's system, and you've got a belligerent, hateful person on your hands. RUN!!!!! Life is too short to subject your precious self to this!!!

A nice note

A wonderful actress who comes to the reading group I've been hosting for over a year now wrote this really sweet note. I was so touched that I wanted to share it with you --

"Just wanted to say that I think you've done an amazing job with the reading series, and congratulations on the one year anniversary. Last weekend was a fantastic turnout, and the scripts were terrific. I am so impressed with all that you accomplish, and I hope you feel a deserved sense of pride in your success and with what you guys have built with your company and community. Not only are you beautiful and smart, but your generous spirit and hard work are a constant inspiration. Thank you for inviting me to be a part of the reading group, and even more, for being an ally and friend."

Its this feeling of community, of sharing in our creative ideas and dreams, of stretching ourselves together in a safe environment that keeps me going. I am SO GRATEFUL for this place we have every 2 weeks that we can all come together and inspire one another.

I only hope, if you are reading this, and wanting a place to go to to find support in your work and to support others - I say DO IT YOURSELF! I've been to plenty of other groups like this, but in the end, I found I needed to lead and not be lead - I needed to have a voice - and I needed to share this voice with others. It is, of course, a time commitment on my end, I've had my doubts at times, but its all a necessary part of the process of creating something really wonderful. And it takes patience. (and that's a real challenge to my Aries nature)

In the words of Nikey: JUST DO IT. Its worth it ....

Ensemble

I've started something that I'm very very proud of.

I've been hosting a writer's group for over a year now - and its grown into something really special. The people who come - are wonderful artists, humble, supportive.....I couldn't be happier about it. Its a lot of work at times for me - but I decided, 3 months into this last year, when I realized it was "bigger" than I thought - that it would take some dedication, leadership, and more time than I'd originally planned - I decided to see it through - that it was important enough to make the time for. Somehow, I knew it was something special....something I really believed in.....worthwhile......

From there, I've chosen an ensemble, I call the "members" of this ensemble - "slashes." Meaning each person involved is: writer/actor, actor/producer, actor/director....you get the idea? Because we will need a lot of hands in the future for the ideas I have - we'll need people that can wear many hats.

Its a small ensemble for now....I want to grow slowly to get the "right" people involved. We're creating a family of artists in a way - so I think the slow build is important. We meet once a week and have some projects that are starting to take shape. I feel like we are painters with paint brushes...and at this point we are standing in front of the blank canvas, together, as inspiration makes her way toward us....and from there the brush will move onto the canvas.......one stroke at a time.....

I think of this ensemble as a theater company but within the medium of film. I always kicked around the idea of having a theater company for many years.....so for the way my creative life has been unfolding....the idea of an ensemble but in the world of film.....it just makes sense. And I have to say, I think the idea is pretty sexy - (it gets me going!!). Think Paul Thomas Anderson and his ensemble in Boogie Nights...then again in Magnolia......

I like it. I like this a whole lot.....

:)