Auf Wiedersehen!

I'm signing off -

This blog has filled its purpose. To allow me another venue in which I can express myself, and, hopefully, inspire. I've tried to be very real about the life of an up and coming actress in New York - to be very honest in that its extremely up and down.

I hope its been helpful in some way. I hope its encouraged one to follow their dreams. To take a risk. Risks dont come easy to ANY of us. Not even to those who appear to be fearless. They are simply more intimate with their fears. Fear tells us what we need to do next. It leads the way.

And I'll leave you with this: Keep your chin up. Surround yourself with good, positive people who believe in you. When something doesnt feel right, it probably isnt! Keep trusting your instincts.

And a story on fear:

My acting coach had a student who was terrified of flying. She had to work out on the west coast, then be in New York the next day for a television interview. She didnt know what to do bc she never flies. But she didnt want to miss either opportunity.

My acting coach's advice to her was :

Fly scared.

;)

Inspiration

Feeling really inspired after going to some of the screenings at the GenArt Film Fest.

www.genart.org

Saw some good films, had some cocktails, reconnected with some folks and met some new peeps - I'd forgotten how important and FUN it is to get out there and meet people and get inspired by other people's work.

And for me, indie films are where its at. THAT excites me.

What am I waiting on? Time to get out there and see more good work - go to more festival screenings.....I'm certainly living in the city to do it in --

Recheck - Keeping it Real

I am feeling a little lost tonight. I need to work.

Currently, I am with a great agency. That rarely sends me out. This is a problem.

While I do believe creating my own work is what will take me places, I feel imbalanced. I do want to be auditioning at least occasionally. I've had very few legit auditions this year (legit = TV/film/theater). That's pretty unimpressive. I parted ways with my last manager - which I totally do not regret - but the truth is that she did send me out. So now I have an agent who I'd like to send me out more and no manager. I've been in talks with a couple of managers - and I feel I need to step up that game and meet more people and then finally secure a new manager who will help get me out there more.

Its easy to feel out of control in this biz....and I feel I need to be back in control. I just need to start working on a project outside of the work I create for myself. Right now, I'm in the thick of writing my solo piece, which has taken an interesting turn. One that scares the be-jesus out of me. Good. Its good to be frightened. To feel alive. And we are starting preproduction for the film I am producing with my hubby. Its a meaty project that I know will take our production company places. So, I am pretty much tied up til early June. Arrrgghhhh! After that, I have want to find an acting gig outside of the work I do on my own. I need to work on someone ELSE'S project!

In the meantime, I've called up an actor I know who is super talented and he and I talk about working together all the time. Its time. Its time for me to get back in there and work my actor muscles.

Hit me up universe - I need to dive into another project. And please help me find a way to juggle it all: marriage, new apartment, earning a living AND living a creative life - finding good, meaty work and finding a manager/agency that really believes in me........