Having Meaningful Problems -

I think I have a problem.

I'm visiting some family in North Carolina for the holiday. And we all have very different political views. But the good news is that we can politely and curiously have conversations about topics such as healthcare, government, foreign affairs, etc.

As we were having these conversations today, which I won't go into here....I'm realizing more and more that I AM interested in politics - something I've been avoiding because I feel the scope of it all is just too big for me. I can't wrap my head around it. I don't really keep up with the news bc I feel its completely contrived and I get frustrated that not everyone cannot afford healthcare, the lack of funding for education, etc. My interest in politics comes purely from a place of wanting to know more so I can be of service, so I can form my own opinion and then try to actually DO SOMETHING about it.

I realized after this lovely, respectful conversation, that its just in the cards for me to be more aware, due to my nature and genuine need to help create a better world, and to fight for what I feel is fair and just. For the underdog. I'm still formulating what exactly this means for me so I can't yet really say --

So, I need to start asking questions. Going into places and conversations that are a little uncomfortable. Because I need to know. And then I need to, in my own way, turn this into action. Into something good and worthwhile. Again, I'm still formulating this -

I am shooting a short film very soon inspired by OWS. I get really frustrated at people who chalk all that up to "what are the issues they are fighting for?" (hello, news media sound byte!!) Thats just a little too easy of an excuse.....

This film is my way of beginning to make some sort of sense of the madness in the world, mixed in with the good. I do believe there is a lot of good out there. And that, more than anything, is what I want to be a part of. The film started off as me simply wanting to create more roles for myself as an actress. But now I'm realizing its so much more than that.

That's my problem. I need to get more involved and ask the big scary questions. So -- here I go!

xo M