While I'm very grateful for what acting has brought into my life......something is missing. A deeper meaning. And I am now committed to going out there and finding this.
I spend too much time fear ridden. Its funny. I think most of my friends would think I'm the opposite. But. I know the things I want to do with my life - and how sometimes I dont go after it. I've also noticed too that money is my immediate reason for not going after things. Fear that I wont have enough, that I cant afford things, that I'll end up sleeping on the side of the road if I go on chasing my dreams. (although, sleeping on the side of the road would have been cool to me when I was 22!) I suppose this is a concern for many artists/performers....but its also an idea in my head that I must let go of - that is getting in my way of becoming all I can be.
Here's something interesting I saw today: "Dreams cost money. But money costs dreams."
So. Here's to a more "examined life." To exploring whatever it is I need to explore.....not for building a resume....not for following someone else's idea of what is a "good career move." But for what I need to do during my time here on this earth. To finding MY deeper meaning. To doing something for the greater good - to try to shed some light where there is darkness. To living beyond me me me me me me me.....
And the first thing I'm going to do: seek out those people who fascinate me.....
