1) Had a first rehearsal for my one person piece and it was ROUGH!! My insecure side was sitting there going "holy shit, I dont know if I want to invite ANYONE to this!!"
But my matter-of-fact, "mama hen" to my creativity told me: "This is a rehearsal - that's what rehearsals are for - to work out the kinks. Now you know what you need to work on. Relax, and get to work!!"
I have to say, I've really grown in my ability to take constructive criticism. I dont take it personally. Constructive criticism is a guidepost to what you need to work on. Boy, a few years ago, I use to let it devour me - I'd get so upset - to the point that it was crippling. Thank the goodness for this growth - and all I can say is that it comes with time. Getting up and doing it over and over and over again - whether it be auditioning, being in front of a camera, working in class, or most likely a combo of all the above.....eventually your fears will lessen. You'll care less about what other people think, need compliments about your work a lot less, and just be committed to doing the best work that you can do.
2) Producing the film I'm working on has been very trying this week. I havent been able to get people to get back in touch with me as quickly as I would have liked. Things havent "moved." And that can be VERY frustrating. When you feel you are on top of things and others appear not to be. ANNOYING!
I realized that I needed to "care" about this project a little less. Not that I will work on it any less than I already am, but that it doesnt need to be my "everything." Projects come and go, they get pushed back, sometimes they disappear. You have to learn, somehow to go with the flow, and not invest every part of your being into them. If that makes ANY sense at all - but its like you have to be prepared to be disappointed at times, and not to take it personally.
Now, if its your own project, that's a whole other ballgame --
I got's my work cut out for me!
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