And what am I doing? You guessed it - PROCRASTINATING!
Anyone who reads this blog knows by now that I struggle with this - that we ALL DO. I dont really know what the answer is to it all - except to notice it - to get to know those habits of yours you are not so proud of - and then forge ahead.
It helps me to write. So when I wrote about it this morning - I realized it was all due to fear. It was like an A-ha moment. Because I was wondering - why would I procrastinate doing something that I really do want to do? That makes zero sense. But there is a lot of fear in stepping up to the plate and doing something that makes you vulnerable - like you have your heart in your hand and instead of hiding it, you are cupping it in your hands and offering it up to strangers and saying:
"Here it is. Here I am, like it or not. Here's my everything."
And that is fucking scary!
So, what's the answer to this? Hmmmm.....I'm not sure if I really know.
Ok - I would say to be very brave and forge ahead. When we avoid, we are just scared. And that is a perfectly, wonderfully normal human experience.
So, I offer to you what I've learned so far --- ;)
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