An Example of Integrity and Another Word on fear

I worked with an actor yesterday (and good friend) who left a $50,000 voiceover audition because it was behind schedule, to make it to a rehearsal we were both involved in. This rehearsal was for a job that didn't pay anything - but was a great experience, working with nice/talented people. And above all, he had committed to this rehearsal - so in the end, when he could have chanced showing up for rehearsal really late, letting the director and writer down and making rehearsal a little difficult to work around his part - to stay at a lucrative audition that he may or may not have booked - he chose to go with his prior commitment. Tough tough choice - but I so admire his loyalty and integrity......and his choice came out of the trust that more auditions like this will come his way - its not the only option he has. And that says a lot about how he sees his own worth.

ok (stepping down from soapbox now...).....

The rehearsal was for a reading at The Actor's Studio last night. I had the lead role and it was fun fun fun. The hubby came and was really proud of me - and its always good to get involved in these things, meet and work with new people, have the opportunity to read new work and simply STAY BUSY and INVOLVED! :)

I met with my commercial agent last week and he helped me with my pitch to their legit dept (remember I'm seeking legit rep to help me get into more union auditions?). Very cool of him to take the time to do this. So, I'll drop off a revised letter/packet later this week to him to pass on to their legit dept....and then I'll reach out to some other agencies I'm targeting.

My writing class starts again tonight. I'd forgotten how much work this is - and it was interesting to observe how much I've been dragging my heels in signing up for this class (even now as I write this blog I am well aware that I'm AVOIDING my writing assignment....). It's all fear, ya know? I feel as though I'm aware of my fears, but my next step is to actually look straight into fear's eyes and DO SOMETHING about it....so taking this class, looking for legit rep, working on my monologues to get into a certain class I want to take is all part of this work on the Self. Places where I know I hold myself back - call it self sabotage or whatever - that I want to let go of bc I know this keeps me from getting all I want out of my life.

And life is too short for that.....

So, where do you hold yourself back? And what can you do about it? (its probably just, yep, you guessed it.....F-E-A-R......)

And I'll leave you with this - a mentor of mine once said that fear actually stands for:

False

Evidence

Appearing

Real

Meaning, the fears we carry are usually made up things we tell ourselves that hold us back. In an attempt to protect ourselves from embarrassment or hurt or not being loved. Or something someone else told us that was hurtful that we carry around. And all that chatter is just noise - no truth in that at all......

So, with all that being said - I'm off to start writing --- :)