Brain Drain

I am feeling totally light-headed - just started doing a cleanse today (see www.goop.com - I think its under the category "Make") - felt like I needed to give the insides a good clean scrub - I'm actually not hungry - but its that constant headache that is annoying. It is interesting to notice my eating impulses - how I like to grab for a muffin or cookie or some sort of carb - consistently - usually when I am on the run and do not have time to stop and eat - or sometimes its emotional, like comfort food or when I'm feeling pissy or down, nothing feels better than devouring a chocolate chip cookie! YUM YUM!

This week has been a little slow. I'm realizing its been a couple of weeks since I've been on any film/TV auditions - so I need to work on that. I'm one by one contacting every casting director I've met - to reconnect, let them know what I'm up to, etc. I've realized in recent months that that is a big part of the game - there are so many actors out there - we constantly have to remind casting folks - and even sometimes our own representation - that we are here, moving and grooving and ready to work! So my manager and I have been working on some ideas of how to get in front of casting folks to say "Hey! You seemed to like me, remember????"

The monologue issue continues to be the monkey on my back. Here's some reasons why I need to address this:

--Want to do more theater = need monologues

--Want to get into a certain audition class = need monologues for this audition too

--It is May and at the beginning of the year I acknowledged that I needed to work on this. I am,

but at a turtle's pace. So, I need to encourage my turtle to get MOVING!!!

Becoming a better auditioner = TV/film jobs = financial success = artistic freedom....and work begets work......

So I started to address this little monkey (again). I flipped through some mono recommendations today and had a friend who is a mono wiz (Thanks O!) look over them and help me select which one to start working on. She's also teaching me a different way of approaching the monologue - which has me wanting to ask a million questions and get overly logical about it - and I think I need to just go with her direction and ride the wave of uncertainty. "Jump and the net will appear!" kind of thing.

So, in this downtime - that's what I'm doing. Or at least that's what I'm talking about doing. In between phone calls and errands and Facebooking and fasting and constantly thinking about chocolate chip cookies and other fun carbs (sigh....).....But hey, you gotta start somewhere, right?

Speaking of reminding folks you are out there, I popped by my commercial agent's office on Friday (you got it, to remind them.....). I hadn't been sent out in a couple of weeks, and that was ok at the time bc I was focused on my writing class -- but now the class is over and 2 weeks of not going out is an issue. I have friends who talk about not getting sent out as much as they would like to - and you know what? That is YOUR problem. YOU must do something about it. Because if you don't, someone else who's got more balls and focus will. And they will book that next job. Not you. So get out there and move your booty! (whatever your profession or dream is!)

I think I was a motivational speaker in a past life.....

And guess what? Popping by on Friday gave me an audition today (Tuesday). Was it worth it? In the oh so famous words of Sarah Palin - "YOU BETCHA!"