The Crazy Crazies

Been very depressed over the last few days. Triggered by this health "thingy." I went to a print casting today for a mental health drug and I couldnt help but think, "Boy, I'm the perfect poster-girl for this right now." Ha ha. At least I have a sense of humor in times like these.

I keep thinking about something I read recently:

"Artists….have their ups and downs….for a while everything you do is wonderful or you think it is then you slide down….pulling yourself up again is the most important part of your life.”

Sometimes I just don't know how to pull myself up and I linger in self-pity for several days. Everything sucks, everyone sucks, I suck, you suck, etc, etc, etc. And then I get sick of it and that's that. I have to move on.

I have a friend who is working like crazy lately, she's my best friend here these days - and she met up with me and listened to my sorrows as I devoured waffles topped with melted chocolate and a hot chocolate on the side (told you it was bad.....). And I felt so vulnerable telling her the crazy thoughts that go on inside my head, all my fears and insecurities. And at the moment when I was feeling most loser-like and vulnerable, I looked across the table, beyond the disappearing mountain of chocolate waffles at her and just when I thought she was going to give me that "GIRLFRIEND, you ARE CRAZY look - the "wow, look at the time, I think I gotta get goin" look -- she gave me her own "crazy" story for every story I had and we spent the whole afternoon topping each other's stories of moments of craziness.

It was just what I needed. :)

So I've been sorta getting things done this week. Walking around like Rain Man, really. But that's ok. I think I need to try to be really kind to myself right now. Or just not be so hard on myself if I'm not accomplishing all my "goals."

Breath in, breath out......smile? Hey, now there's an idea.....!

Here's a list of things I came up with that might help you combat the blues:

1) Spend time with a caring friend

2) Yoga (or exercise of your choice)

3) Write

4) Get it all out - complain, bitch and then MOVE ON (poor husband....)

5) Try not to beat yourself up - you are human - and frustration, sadness, etc are all colors of your emotional rainbow

6) Go see beautiful things - kids playing in the park, art exhibit, etc.

7) Sleep (or other forms of relaxation, like getting a massage)

8) Reading other people's blogs. You'd be amaze to see that you are not alone!

9) And of course, retail therapy is always an option